A handful of beans
An eclectic assortment of my adventures and travels over the past few years, spanning the Americas, Africa, Europe and Asia.
Tuesday, August 9, 2016
My Philosophy of Teaching
Friday, July 18, 2014
Return to water
Where the 2 rivers meet
Rough sand underfoot
I waited until fire centre released me
And the heat of the day had gone
Cool, twilit evening
Just me and the dark water
Nothing else under the surface
Fresh, swift current
Tinkling laughter echoes in the distance
Twisting, diving and dolphin kicks
Liberated, joyful dance
Last night I left the river after dark
Twinkling lights reflected
I return always, to water
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Mountains in the Moonlight
Just go outside
Look look
Either the cold
or the view
could've alone been responsible
for taking my breath away
But it was both
though it wasn't so cold
Cold for November 1
Wearing pyjamas and flip flops
with a fleece blanket like a parka
So it would be fair to say it was the view
a photo wouldn't do it justice
Maybe a painting but only one painted on the inside of a sphere
could compare to the scale and wonder that I saw
Words
Words are wonderful and fluid and deep and emotive
but my words would never begin to pry out the melancholy and power
I saw
I can only hope these words will always be enough to remind me of what
I saw
But the lace of the night might slowly unravel
leaving my mind with just the hint of the extraordinary that
I experienced
Shadows across mountain cirques
tracing peaks
and peaks and peaks
and I imagined being colder and higher and closer to the earth than
I was
right there with my sandaled feet in the gravel of pad 1
And I wonder if I'll ever experience
mystery
such as I did tonight
Such poignant, cloud-fly-by, passing, shining
beauty
and though it may never return
to rest in front of my eyes
I so deeply wish that it will always rest
lightly and exquisitely
at the back of my mind
permeating my consicousness
Whenever I need a hint of otherworldliness
of sacred raw light
let me remember
oh please
please
Let me remember
Nov 1 2009
Cline River, Alberta, Canada
I post this now - many months after I wrote it late one glorious night....because I have a feeling and a hope that beauty and majesty will be in my life even more often now here in the North than perhaps ever before in my adult life.
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Princeton-in-Africa Photography Book
In case you want to support a cause I believe in – the one that helped send me to
Monday, February 28, 2005
The Walk
I walk out and down a valley
A glance shows all is rough and wild
But evergreens fresh from a nursery
Belie the wilderness
Black irrigation hoses to trip over
Angry dog barks in the distance
But nothing spied in a few minutes
Curious search.
Continue descending.
A cut off hose is an unnatural spring
Spurting and trickling the water
Has built its own house
Unusual ice sculpture
I place a hand to understand the texture.
Press down. Drops extend away and I leave
A barely visible imprint when I
Eventually walk away
To see into a birds nest
In a twisted spiky tree.
There is a leap up and attempt to scale
A vertical living pole.
A skinned shin and white dusty clothes are the only result.
I wander some more and
Then walk back out of the valley.
Derelict outbuildings wait at the top
Exploring, I find
Tables and seats roughly assembled
Child’s play of house,
Or someone’s cold reality
Memories of adolescence
Floating to the surface
Of consciousness
Like warm air in winter
Shy hand holding on an orange-patterned seat
Between white water-tanks.
Shaded by dusty green and prickly acacia trees
Dirt on cement floor.
Sneaker-clad toe-scratching.
‘Lambada’ he says, ‘Do you know what
It means?’ Of course I do—I was the one who said it was
I love you
No matter that it isn’t.
But I only say ‘yes’ so quietly as
I turn away
Nervous but smiling.
But, ‘Do you know what it means?’—I want to ask him now.
For at school
Our neighborly friendship and courting
Dissolves.
He ignores me and plays basketball
With his twin and friends instead.
No sign of Lambada
No dance for me at Valentines.
A lone card dropped on his doorstep
And a hasty, awkward escape after the bell is rung
With an arm cast to protect a broken wrist,
12 year old heart soon to join it.
Thursday, February 5, 2004
Streaming through the night
Streaming through the night
On the back of a motor bike
Sunglasses on
Eyes wide open
Wind blowing
Surreal nostalgia down in the pit of the stomach
As friends and football wait at the end of the ride
Dark and cool Africa town
Pavement and pot holes
Quiet
Like a silent soundtrack playing
To the wrong movie
You think
But it’s not
Just a different place to what you thought it was
Or maybe just a
Different side to the story you were living
Streaming through the night
Surreal and nostalgic light
This is now
This is home
For now
Right now this is home
Tuesday, April 15, 2003
How still you sleep
There you rest. Outside your walls, you could look up and find me not a hundred paces from your bed. But there are walls and you do not come for me. You hear the barking. So loud that you cannot sleep. Come. Please come and stop my seeping. It is not too late but I cannot move. And neither do you. You lie with your love so close and I am here all alone. Only the dogs come to investigate. You roll over and pull each other close. The wind pulls my scent onwards and more howls join the din. A symphony finale. Am I the only one who listens? I am the composer. How still I lie. The audience does not applaud. Finally, you sleep on.
There you hide. Or maybe you are not hiding at all but I do not see you. And then you come. Why? I can guess but I do not know. You hurt me so much. I am afraid but countless others have felt this pain and somehow I feel that instead. In this place many have lain before me. Oddly, I am comforted but still I fight. And still you continue. How much will you take before you leave me? How much of this sugar cane will be cloaked in my blood? Whereas the children in the morn may wonder how still I lie, you may never wonder how still I die. You drop me. Finally. You move on.
15th April 2003
Mbarara, Uganda